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菜桜美||naomi||ONE OK ROCK
cause i'm a mess and you know that i can't help it

i'm just this strange contrarian of a girl

"Memories warm you up from the inside. But they also tear you apart."


  • Anonymous asked: 2: Think of the last person who hurt you; do you forgive them? 5: Are you afraid of falling in love? 25: What’s on your mind? Just a question of my own if you don't mind, are you currently happy right now? if so or not then why or why not?

    2. Hmm. I think that that person was the type to not be able to relate to others very well, so he wasn’t all that great at understanding people and emotions. So when he hurt me, I wasn’t even surprised tbh but that didn’t really make it hurt any less. I forgive him to an extent because I know what kind of person he just was but not completely. at least not yet, but I will with time.

    5. I am afraid of getting hurt, and I think that that is innate to falling in love. but i believe the reward is far greater than the risk, regardless of whether you can be with that person or not. it’s a quasi-salvation. so yes, I am afraid, but I will welcome it with open arms.

    25. Uh, well a lot of things are on my mind. I have been using this analogy to describe the state of my brain a lot recently: My head is just this freaking crazy hurricane of conflicting thoughts and feelings and I don’t even know what I want anymore, let alone how I feel. But I just finished rereading the Fault in Our Stars (and I cried omg Gus why) and I’ve been thinking about Zeno’s theory (which I find really interesting and I haven’t found the fallacy yet even though it shouldn’t work) and whether or not I should go to athletics training today and how to motivate myself to study even though it’s holidays because I have a bunch of tests and stuff in the upcoming weeks.

    Am I currently happy or not? Hmm. To be honest, it really fluctuates. Though the last few weeks have been rather tumultuous, I’ve had some really great days recently hanging out with friends, travelling, doing interesting things etc where I’ve been super happy. Well, T least my definition of happy, which may differ to yours. There’s also less time to brood and be sad when you’re keeping busy, so that’s what I’ve been doing. I am pretty happy with my life overall - I am a very lucky and privileged person who has the capability (cant think of a better word) to indulge in hobbies and things they love, but I’m exactly happy with myself I guess? I would like to become a better person but I have the rest of my life to work at that

    Now, a question of my own: Are you someone who I know in real life? Because I probably would be happy to give you more in-depth answers that I am not comfortable with publishing publicly. And thanks for the questions, sorry if my answers were lame and too long XD

      -  22 April

    cybertwinks:

    the only people who ever call me pretty are either old or online

    "Poetry doesn’t have to rhyme, it just has to touch someone where your hands couldn’t."


  • "Being an artist means forever healing your own wounds and at the same time endlessly exposing them."